Is hard to do.
You tend to remember only the “good”, when faced with the only choice which is to let go.
The good, is not the whole picture.
Regardless of what your own heart has felt and showed him over time, it is what it is. He will always be in love with her.
He will always be too and fro, like a tumbleweed blowing whichever way the wind pleases.
But the choice, the only choice, to let go has to begin and continue with you.
Be strong, they say. Being strong is much easier said than done. But being strong, knowing that you deserve much more than he is ever willing to give, is the only saviour.
Purpose in your heart to forgive yourself. To forgive him, and her in time. But purpose in your heart to never look back. This isn’t about holding grudges or being rude, it’s about coming through.
Purpose in your heart to not replay his awful words said in anger over the period of the year, or yours to him I’m those last days. Not to believe what he purposed in his heart against you. Who is he? Mere young man. Who are we all? Mere humans.
It also is not about keeping higher walls against him or persons like him. Protecting yourself comes by sound wisdom and judgment, and not the happiness in the emotions and flesh. Walls do protect, but they also act as barriers that you can’t get out.
I am no expert in letting go, I held on for as long as I could hoping and wishing that he would want to love me. But it is what it is and this was never meant to be.