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Letting Go

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Is hard to do.

You tend to remember only the “good”, when faced with the only choice which is to let go.

The good, is not the whole picture.

Regardless of what your own heart has felt and showed him over time, it is what it is. He will always be in love with her.

He will always be too and fro, like a tumbleweed blowing whichever way the wind pleases.

But the choice, the only choice, to let go has to begin and continue with you.

Be strong, they say. Being strong is much easier said than done. But being strong, knowing that you deserve much more than he is ever willing to give, is the only saviour.

Purpose in your heart to forgive yourself. To forgive him, and her in time. But purpose in your heart to never look back. This isn’t about holding grudges or being rude, it’s about coming through.

Purpose in your heart to not replay his awful words said in anger over the period of the year, or yours to him I’m those last days. Not to believe what he purposed in his heart against you. Who is he? Mere young man. Who are we all? Mere humans.

It also is not about keeping higher walls against him or persons like him. Protecting yourself comes by sound wisdom and judgment, and not the happiness in the emotions and flesh. Walls do protect, but they also act as barriers that you can’t get out.

I am no expert in letting go, I held on for as long as I could hoping and wishing that he would want to love me. But it is what it is and this was never meant to be.

Sundays Are For Silence

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Sundays Are For Silence

Sometimes I am overwhelmed with words. Other times I have nothing to say. Sunday was an in-between feeling kind of day.

This blog helps me to express myself, to get words out. To journal my experiences and thoughts in things.

As I lay here reflecting, my minds runs across the many inter-related relationships and situations with various people and how it can affect you or your emotions can affect how you interact with them. To be honest sometimes it is good to take a step back from everyone and breathe. For whatever length of time is needed, use it.

Sunday, I think was one of those days where I just needed to be alone. To sit down and just be. I was able to do that, to pick sense from nonsense then just do lazy day things. I do believe that too much time spent on thinking of yourself can have a counter effect rather then help any personal situation. It’s like that phrase of “being too much in your head”. But just being helps you somewhat to see the world as is. Not what you think it should, could, would be. But as is.

It’s good to take some time to yourself and embrace the day.