We all have ups and downs. It is a part of life. I’ve been thinking for the last day, that I can’t regret “P” in my life. I so very much have grown to love him. But what it harder is letting him go so he can grow, so I can grow. That saying comes to mind “of you let a bird go and it comes back, it was yours to begin with”, well I have no expectations except that in time healing and growth will be allowed to take place.
I won’t dwell on what’s lost, but in the bitter sweetness am thankful for many things.
A friend sent me the below message, and I have to say it is fitting.
“Dear Brave Girl,
Did you know that you have the right to make rules for your life? Did you know that you are the ONLY one who can make soul deep rules about what you want, how you want to feel, who you want to be with, what you want to spend your energy on and in what ways you want to contribute and give back to the world? Do you remember that you are the only one who can decide what YOU will tolerate and put up with?
Sometimes, beautiful friend, things happen in life that make us forget that we get to decide. Sometimes we just put ourselves on autopilot and take whatever comes along, thinking that we have to put up with all sorts of abuse, neglect and yuckiness…whether we are doing it to ourselves or letting others have that kind of influence in our lives.
Make some rules…you are worth the time it will take. You are worth the sacrifices it will take. Decide today what you want your life to look like, and then start living in ways that point only to that plan. It is entirely possible to live the life that your heart yearns to live, friend!! And it is never too late.
You are so very very very loved.
People are imperfect, and it takes a great love to cover the multitude of our sins. Such a great love.