The Swim That Almost Never Happened


Initially I thought I was helping a friend who, yesterday, felt a bit regretful that she didn’t have a good swim by preparing to swim on my “day off” with her.

As the day unfolded Jenn cancelled the swim in the sea due to unavoidable circumstances. Normally I would have just cancelled all together, but this time and for whatever reason I decided to still go and work on my own speed and form.

I reached before Alex, and noticed that it was such a beautiful Tuesday afternoon and the water was calm. Not like any of our swims before, I decided to stretch and go for a fast warm up. NY the time I was done Alex showed up for our swim.

Alex is a much faster swimmer than I, but I was happy to be alongside someone faster as I feel it would give me a goal to work towards. Friendly competition, to help us all get better at the sport.

As we swam I’d noticed that this swim wasn’t as gorgeous underwater as my previous post. I think this was due to the recent rainy weather we had in the last few days. But even so I’d noticed that more concentration was on my form and breathing.

I’d finally reached Public Beach. The half mile mark, and we took about one minute rest and started our way back. This time around I could feel my body warmed up really well, and my breathing was controlled as we seemed to be going fast and I was keeping up with Alex. Maybe we were swimming with the current, I can’t be sure.

My mind was clear, my strokes felt comfortable, my legs fluttering,my core held tight everything seemed to be working well. Towards the last section of the swim, I’d noticed that I was slowly but surely overtaking Alex. The only thing in my mind was the give it my all -not against Alex, but using this as a positive challenge and pushing my body, mind and spirit using what I’ve learned to the maximum.

I am very happy with this evenings swim. Unfortunately I don’t have a multi sport watch or other waterproof watch to have timed today’s swim, but I felt it was such a good swim.

What I’ve learned is that you mind has to be focused and clear, your soul at a balance with peace and using the tools learned one will perform well.


New Experiences


Today was as normal a day than any. I decided, from the night before, to prepare my swim gear for Monday evening with the Ladies.

Normalcy was what I was looking for.

Without much thought I walked towards the waters edge, glancing around at the unrecognizable faces enjoying the afternoon beach. What a beautiful evening at the beach it was, the sand soft and white. The water calm and different shades of blue. The sun not quite ready to set, but it’s colours dashing on the water. All this is hadn’t yet recognized. Many thoughts of the night before dancing in my subconscious.

I decided to get a warm up before I’d meet with the girls. Warm ups would get the blood flowing. Plopped on my swim cap. Adjusted my goggles over my eyes then SPLASH, into the water I went. For a moment I just stopped, limbs not moving, and stared at the clear bottom of the sea bed. My mind went silent. As I watched my limbs floating, I could feel the water caressing my skin. I could actually feel the water.

For the first time in a while, I took in the beauty of the water. The way it holds you as you float or how it hugs your skin as your limbs move in slow motion. It was beautiful indeed.

My warm up was short and sweet and I hadn’t planned on exerting myself this evening. Felt a bit miserable really and decided that I would tell the Ladies that I’m only doing a short recovery swim.
     After my warm up, I saw them. They looked like they needed to relax also. Maybe a hard day. Jenn M wanted to swim a mile. Shit. Well maybe a mile is what I needed. Ok, I’ll swim a mile.

As we swam, like a learned habit, I’d noticed my strokes were one-two-three. Breathe. One-two-three. Breathe. Is this really me? I’d finally got the hang of breathing after every third stroke. Granted I wasn’t going very fast. Still I got it down.

After a few minutes swimming, I began noticing a variety of different fish darting across me and others jumping out of the water as they dashed forward. How cool is that? One-two-three. Breathe. My body gliding forward. My mind wasn’t trying to think on the weekends stress. It was blank. Just blank. Nope, not even a thought on whether any sharks were out. Blank. But I guess that is good.

Reached the turnaround point.  Took about 30 seconds. Interestingly I wasn’t panting very hard either. Hmm. Go. Each time I took two seconds to take in air over my right side, I would look at the sky. What a beautiful sun beginning to descend. There seemed to be a bit of dark greyish clouds out. Hope it doesn’t rain.

Mind still blank. But it’s a good thing. The quietness of myself is actually open to experiencing the beauty around me. It was really beautiful, too. I should do this more often. How blessed is this? What’s funny is that I’m actually getting to enjoy Cayman beach. Making the time to enjoy the waters, the sand, the sun setting on the horizon.

This is reason to smile today. Yes,it is.




Consider the above quote. Let it sink in for a moment or two.

If you thought about the quote then one of the first things you would note is that vision for future is very important. How can one know where they want to or are going if not for having vision?

Wandering aimlessly leads to an openness of misadventures. While you can still learn in your wandering, lots of it isn’t necessary.

Consider also that he past is called “past” for a reason. What has gone is gone, unretrievable. If you have left something, whether by growth or change, why do you return to what’s past or what’s passed? My answer to that, as in my own life has a lot to do with fear. Fear of not having vision for future. Fear of growing out of and into something new, as newness is unknown or unusual to me. So I fear that which I don’t know.

Unfortunately it is very easy to revert to the past as what has passed is very comfortable. After all comfort is what we know. But in striving to be inside comfort we actually do not grow and 8 growing, expand into a new self.

Now we all do not have “it” altogether,  and so many will have vision for their lives. Others will need to create vision and follow through. We may not have vision regarding everything in our lives, but once we begin to know ourselves and really be okay with our fears of change, we can safely and steadily walk in our vision.

Be brave. Be fearless. Be ever growing.

Freedom in Your Run



There are certain essentials that you’ll need for a good run:-

1. A good pair of running sneakers
2. Pair of decent earphones
3. Rockin Playlist
4. Running watch

Other than the above, you need to ensure you’re adequately hydrated (have you drank your water lately?) and have had a well balanced meal.

Now you’re set for your run.

I hadn’t been pounding the road since last Wednesday, and truth be told I didn’t have a well balanced meal neither was I adequately hydrated. On top of that I am having the onset of the flu.

Readers Note:- Don’t follow what I’ve done today. Yet you’ve got to know your body.

But I decided I wanted to get out and about, seeking a different scenery….actually the truth is that I’d bought a new pair of earphones and I desperately (OK….”desperation” is overkill..) wanted to see if they passed my test.

My earphones brand are “Bose”, and aparantly Bose is the Jaguars of earphone brands (at least according to a friend..). What’s different with this set is the earpiece. If you look at my picture at the beginning of this post you’ll see and odd shaped earpiece. This fits inside your ear, flat. Not only does it give a flush look, it did not budge or drop out. The sound quality was excellent. The weight is lght and the cord was not too long and dangly.  Mind you I’d only ran a 5k but for Testing Day #1, I’d say it passed.

Wednesday, on a longer run I’ll try these out again.

Aside from my new earphones I did enjoy my easy jog. I can proudly, and happily, say that I’m jogging 3.10 miles in under 30 minutes.

It was good to go it alone and I felt happy and peaceful this evening.

Whatever your reason is to start, just start and continue running.

Goodbye 2014…


As the end of a full calendar year is closing and the eve of the beginning of 2015, it is almost tradition to take a moment to reflect on many life changes that we all have gone through and those people and situations in our lives that brought negativity or positivity.

What I have learnt in 2014:

Not every person who smiles at you, means you well.

Even those you love, for the sake of love, you need to distance yourself from or cut communication ties with.

Not every closed door, is a terrible thing.

You are who you are. Be thankful for that and be the best you can be.

Stand up for yourself, especially when you stand alone.

Accept the people who left you, accept the closed doors, accept the “no”.

Make your own choices.

Don’t wait for anyone to value you. Value yourself and walk tall.

Just because others treat you ill, lie to you, cheat on you, use you, don’t allow their hate to spoil the good that 8th In you.

Be strong and corageous.

Do what is right when you are scared and when no one is looking.

Love yourself, always.

Be grateful for today, for each moment. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone.

While tradition warrants any kind of reflection, each day is really a beauty in and of itself. Regardless of what we go through I believe that God is a very Good God. That In Christ of Nazareth we are free.

In 2015 we can use the experiences and tools we have gained to overcome many things, and we will do so with gumption and grace.

To all those who were in my life at some point, but now are not, I will always love you in the purest sense that I know how to. May you also strive to be the best you can be, not to impress anyone but to be better than you were yesterday.

I leave everyone else with this wish:-


True Beauty Is..


Today I looked at myself in a photo, with others, and for once I saw the raw beauty.

There was beauty in the mouth, than curled upwards at the sides forming a big grin.

There was beauty in the eyes, that creased at the corners feeling the laugh bubbling inside.

There was beauty in my posture, that showed comfort and relaxation.

For once I didn’t have to think about what was not perfect about my physical appearance. I saw the raw joy being displayed on my face and in my posture.

There was freedom to be beautiful, to be happy to be me.

Letting Go


Is hard to do.

You tend to remember only the “good”, when faced with the only choice which is to let go.

The good, is not the whole picture.

Regardless of what your own heart has felt and showed him over time, it is what it is. He will always be in love with her.

He will always be too and fro, like a tumbleweed blowing whichever way the wind pleases.

But the choice, the only choice, to let go has to begin and continue with you.

Be strong, they say. Being strong is much easier said than done. But being strong, knowing that you deserve much more than he is ever willing to give, is the only saviour.

Purpose in your heart to forgive yourself. To forgive him, and her in time. But purpose in your heart to never look back. This isn’t about holding grudges or being rude, it’s about coming through.

Purpose in your heart to not replay his awful words said in anger over the period of the year, or yours to him I’m those last days. Not to believe what he purposed in his heart against you. Who is he? Mere young man. Who are we all? Mere humans.

It also is not about keeping higher walls against him or persons like him. Protecting yourself comes by sound wisdom and judgment, and not the happiness in the emotions and flesh. Walls do protect, but they also act as barriers that you can’t get out.

I am no expert in letting go, I held on for as long as I could hoping and wishing that he would want to love me. But it is what it is and this was never meant to be.

Beauty of Survival


It has nothing to do with revenge
You feel the anger
You feel the fear
You feel the hurt
You feel the disappointment

There is a choice

In your soul you debate the pathway
You can go the route of hate
You can go the route of anger
You can go the route of pain

There is a choice

Be true to what you feel and give yourself to feeling the emotions.

The real you will always show in the end. Despite being honest about what you feel, you can still decide to return to kindness, truth and love.

You have that choice.

You own your choices, regardless of what is done to you. Regardless of your own wrong choices that led you down the wrong paths, you have a choice in what you become after.

I choose to live free of that anger, hate, pain and disappointment. When those emotions go I choose not to be defined by them but to walk on in truth, kind essential and love.

I have a choice and so do you.

Quiet, Calm, and Loved


Today was an odd day. Odd because usually my life had much drama. But today and yesterday was very quiet, no true worries or anxiety attacks, no heartaches or fears – just a stillness.

In this stillness I never really knew how to handle it. Do I revert to being surtounded by drama that I had become accustomed to? My flesh almost yearned for that for lack of knowledge. But I decided to ride the stillness through.

Today was day 2 of the stillness and I have to say that in this time there is still no feeling of dread or anxiety. Just a very calm, kind of knowing or trusting that the change is good.

The effects of dramatic situations do take a toll on you. You contend with your own emotions and thoughts as well as the other party (ies) involved. All this causing stress to your own person and others. So being in the midst of calm stillness is a very good thing.



She is beautiful, even though he won’t see it.

She is willing to love him, even though it’s not good enough for him.

She is loyal to him, even though he disrespected her.

She is broken because of him.

She questions herself, why isn’t she good enough? What can she change so that he would want to cherish and love her? Deep down passing all the hurts
he has caused, she knows there is nothing she can do. He is who he is, and he will always disappoint her in his choices.

He only choice is to accept courting from another man who wants her.